time and again she drives me to desperation. she makes me wan to take my own life. to destroy myself. to imagine the way i'll die. to picture myself being hit by a car or flying down from a tall building, crushing into pieces. hoping so much tat she'll pick up tat knife and stab me to death. tat she'll slap me, hit me, strangle me. i wish she'll see the cruel way i die. tat image printed in her mind forever. i have my dreams and ambition. but she destroys everything. everything i have. and i wish that she'll live with that guilt forever.